I want to be selfish. I want to shout about the injustices that I have to endure like being ignored by people who are supposed to be "close" to me. Like being treated like crap and taking it with a smile. Like getting yelled at for things that are not in my control and just agreeing that it's my fault when it's NOT.
I'm tired of being taken advantage over because people know I will let them. These same people, if I point out ANYTHING they're doing wrong just turn on themselves and start insulting themselves. This is not a fair way to fight, because than I have to console you and say that it's okay and you're not a terrible person. Realize, that you're not a terrible person, but turning the situation on yourself makes it sucky for me. I than have to cheer up the one I'm angry at and can't say what I fully want to because I don't want you to feel like you're horrible (which you're not)... but it IS a horrible way to fight... and I'm tired of it.
I'm annoyed that you don't realize that I'm going through a freakin' lot and a freakin' hard time too. Can you really only see yourself and not others? I understand you're hurting, but I am too, danggit. I know you're hurting, and she's hurting, and they are too, but I'm tired of being the only one not ALLOWED to have other feelings besides bloody happiness.
I'm tired. I'm tired of always being the bad guy and not sticking up for myself and taking all the blame when it's mainly not mine to take. I hate this. I hate not saying anything because I don't want to HURT you like you're hurting ME. I'm tired of being snapped at and talked to in tones that make my heart cringe. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of people being so SELFISH. I'm tired of people not realizing that I have freakin' feelings or not caring about them.
I may be made of stone, but I feel too, gosh danggit.
~Inspirations~
"Keep your mouth closed and a smile on your face, and you'll find a way to get through every day. Keep a laugh on your sleeve and turn the other check, and find a way to get back at them some day." -J.M. Stetson
"I smile because it's easier than explaining why I am sad."
"Ice can melt, and so I'll replace this mask with stone, and everyone will only know the one emotion shown. " -J.M. Stetson
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This is my beautiful life, the only thing certian is everything changes, the lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes, as hard as it gets I know it's still amazing, it's a beautiful life...
Quotes
"It doesn't matter that I am weak right now, all that matters is that I will become stronger."
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"Never die alone, for there will be no one to pass your heart onto."
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"People cannot be thought to define beauty, however. Flowers can be thought to define beauty. A person's form resembles a flower, only at the time of defeat, when it is torn to peices."
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"It's easier to crush a dream than to realize one, forming a bond is infinitely more difficult than breaking one."
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"I'll follow you and make a heaven out of hell and I'll die by your hand which I love so well." --Shakespeare
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"Dancing on the line between the living and the dead she hums a song her mind cannot remember and her heart cannot forget."
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"You thought I would forget you, that you need to put your image into my brain... but the fact is, that you're name will always be carved on my heart." -J.M. Stetson
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"No matter how many times I get hurt by because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have a thousand reasons to leave you, I'll look for one reason to fight for you."
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"Stand in the rain, stand your ground. Stand up when it's all coming down. You stand through the pain, you won't drown. And one day what's loss can all be found, You stand in the rain."
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"The courses of true love never did run smooth."
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"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
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"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved. You will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."
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"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter." -J.E. Jones
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"I ran through out the skies, but I must awake from this sleep. For a deamon from hell, heaven can't keep."
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"Three men and I in battle fought side by side. We slayed each others foes and never would depart. I battle alone now. Their names are my battle cry. Their memories carved on my heart."
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"My heart was always yours to hold, but never yours to keep. You are always by my side, but never within reach."
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Looking at you is like looking into a mirror and unfortunately, I hate what I see. I am not so narcissistic as to love my reflection, but am cruel enough to hate it."
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"Never die alone, for there will be no one to pass your heart onto."
--
"People cannot be thought to define beauty, however. Flowers can be thought to define beauty. A person's form resembles a flower, only at the time of defeat, when it is torn to peices."
--
"It's easier to crush a dream than to realize one, forming a bond is infinitely more difficult than breaking one."
--
"I'll follow you and make a heaven out of hell and I'll die by your hand which I love so well." --Shakespeare
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"Dancing on the line between the living and the dead she hums a song her mind cannot remember and her heart cannot forget."
--
"You thought I would forget you, that you need to put your image into my brain... but the fact is, that you're name will always be carved on my heart." -J.M. Stetson
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"No matter how many times I get hurt by because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have a thousand reasons to leave you, I'll look for one reason to fight for you."
--
"Stand in the rain, stand your ground. Stand up when it's all coming down. You stand through the pain, you won't drown. And one day what's loss can all be found, You stand in the rain."
--
"The courses of true love never did run smooth."
--
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
--
"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved. You will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."
--
"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter." -J.E. Jones
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"I ran through out the skies, but I must awake from this sleep. For a deamon from hell, heaven can't keep."
--
"Three men and I in battle fought side by side. We slayed each others foes and never would depart. I battle alone now. Their names are my battle cry. Their memories carved on my heart."
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"My heart was always yours to hold, but never yours to keep. You are always by my side, but never within reach."
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Looking at you is like looking into a mirror and unfortunately, I hate what I see. I am not so narcissistic as to love my reflection, but am cruel enough to hate it."
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2 comments:
That doesn't sound like a fair way of fighting.
Haha, it's not!! :/
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