To See You Smile

--TO SEE YOU SMILE--

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All I ever wanted to do was make you smile,

Hear your laugh; make you stay a while.

Stand next to me as the sands of time blow,

Ignoring the gusts as we keep our heads low.

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Together we stand, tightly holding hands,

But now you're gone, slipping away like dry sand...

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I felt you slipping, I tried grasping you tighter,

But it seemed like you only fell that much harder...

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I'm lost, afraid, and very confused,

I'm feeling like I'm fading, feeling so bruised.

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My heart's not shattered, but it's getting close,

Because you're leaving, the one I care for the most.

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I held my heart out to you, out in my hand,

An offering to you, I thought you'd understand.

But you turned away, leaving me be,

Then why does it feel so lonely to be me?

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I felt a part of me break, my heart falters,

This can't be the end when you're all that matters.

I won't turn away, I'm still on the fight,

To help make everything in your life right.

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But helping you is harder then you think,

When you turn away, my heart seems to shrink.

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We've been friends before, we could do it again,

Anything to make you happy, to see that grin.

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And if from away from me you turn, asking me to leave,

I'll smile to your face, but inside my heart will grieve.

You'll say to leave you alone, you don't want me anymore,

And I'll fade into the distance, but my heart will be sore...

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But to see you smile, to make you laugh,

I would do anything to bring it back.

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I'm tired of treading through shallow pools,

The way my heart feels, this anguish is cruel.

When will you let me, to help and understand,

When will you let me retake your hand?

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I'd do anything, to see your beam,

Even if that means getting rid of me.

But if by chance, you ask me to stay,

Facing me to take the pain you caused away,

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Maybe we could start all over and forget the bad days,

Watching as the worries of the world fade away.

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I'd do anything to see you smile,

I'd walk a hundred million miles.

Realizing my heart's not a toy,

And then you could be my boy.

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S---Slipping on

M--Masked

I---Indifferent

L---Lies of

E---Emotion

No real reason for posting this, just late at night (almost 4am) and thought of this idea, wrote it into a poem and, tada! Crap filled poem of stupidity! I dont' really have a rhyme scheem and I used multipul rhymes mulitipul times, but other then that, it's okay.

Loves- Nay

All Hallow's Eve

HAPPY ALL HALLOWS EVE! (A.K.A.- Halloween) Oh goodness I love it so! My friend Mitch and I were really the only ones decked out, but many people were semi dressed up. We had four vampires, none of which, where from Twilight. Anyway, enjoy what I've posted!

Oh! And a little afternote: I know what I want to be for next Halloween!

My supa-fly hat! That's... not even mine... :)
My pumkin! It's Robin from Teen Titans... Cool huh?! :)

Awesome face shot...

Back shot of the wings that were amazing!

Me and Mitch, he's some kind of emo/goth, but we look super chill!

Long Time, No Posting.

I have... a problem. I'll admit it. I can't seem to be able to post anything on time. Halloween, yeah. Favorite holiday and still, no pictures in site. They will be up soon, but I feel bad about no posting/pictures/anything really. So here's an update from October-ish.

I am currently dating a great boy who accepts me for who I am and what I am and knows I can change, but isn't going to force it upon me. I'm still attending WSU and taking classes of theatre, English, Socioligy, and Math. I love my theatre class! I wish it was a little harder, but hey, I'll take any stage time I can get! I'm currently employed with a company called Rise. I basically can watch children and adults with mental handicaps from 3-64 years old and assist them in every day activites. It's a great job and I love doing what I do! I still have my high school friends (mostly) and am making new friends as well. I might not have any direction in my life currently planned, but obviously I'm doing something right, because for now, everything is okay.

As of any news recently, I have nothing. Just the above listed. So, technically, you didn't miss much. I've deprived the camera much picture taking, and so I will post some soon. But, you have to realize my "absence" of blogging could be the absence of internet in my new apartment, so I can only blog on mom's computer and you know how hard it IS to get on mom's computer. :) Anyway, love you all and miss you! Call, text, fly out... whatever you need to do to get in contact with me!

LURVE- J.M.S

Just like Nay

"Court, can I make you look like Nay?"
"Yeah!!"
So... I did. I put very dark eye liner on my Lynne and then took pictures. It probably wouldn't have been so dark (or on her upper lids) If she didn't keep moving. Then we showed mom. She wasn't too happy. Then later...
"Nay?"
"Yes Lynne?"
"All done now?"
"Yes Lynne."

Smiling,'cause that's what Lynne's do!

My Courtney Lynne!

Weber Game with Amanda

My first Weber game with my friend up here! Her name is Amanda and we went to the game and had a blast! It was way fun, even though we lost. :( We left at half time... that is... after we saw the Colorguard preform. :) :) :) It was really fun, and I'm glad I went! Here are some pictures to remember the event. :)

Me and Amanda, she has a strip of purple in her hair...but wait till you see mine... 0.O
My purple and white hair! I have a "W" on one cheek and a paw print on the other. :)

One last picture of my amazing-ly cool hair! :)

Stacey's St. Bernard

Stacey has a St. Bernard friend that lives in a house by the grocery store we go to. Mom didn't believe she had one, so we took pictures. :) Anyway, we wanted to post them on the blog so you could all see her! (At least we think it's a "her" from the pink collar) There is also another dog there who we don't even know what kind of do it is... so we just pet it all the same. We feed them liver treats and... other... things. :) Enjoy the pictures!

Stacey and der St. Bernard.
From a glance.

And isn't it cute! Hey mom... can we get one? :) :) :)

All Night Party, Continued

Or me?
Brandon knows how to touch his nose with his tounge...but what about the rest of us?

Here's Adrian pulling a Lilo and Stitch...

And I guess I needed a little help...

But, when five o' clock AM rolls around...we are all ready to sleep, as Cody shows us all here.

AFTER NOTE- The reason why this is done in two posts is because Blogger wasn't being really nice to me. :0)